Who do I think I am?

Me? I’m a nobody, really.

I’m a trumpet player with no credentials. I’m a college dropout. I’ve never toured with a famous band or studied with a famous musician. The majority of my work is for weddings…which most musicians feel are beneath them. I’m not famous. I don’t even play on a Monette trumpet or anything fancy like that. I’m not a great player. I’m an okay trumpet player, but there are hundreds of trumpet players who I will readily acknowledge are better than I am.

As a composer I have never won any competitions or received any major commissions. The bulk of my work is completely unknown to anyone who hasn’t seen my file cabinet…which includes me and…well…it includes me.

I’m financially disadvantaged (how’s that for a p.c. term?). I have never owned a new car. Probably about 90% of the people who read this blog make more money than I do. Most of my adult life I have lived “beneath the official poverty line.” I know what it’s like to be bankrupt. I was even homeless in Chicago for a brief stint in 1987.

Socially, to say I am a wallflower would be an understatement. I don’t drink. I don’t enjoy sports. I have very little in common with most people so I generally do not fit in at social events.

As a Christian I have had my share of mistakes. I am the ex-husband of a ruined marriage. I have committed more than my share of sins (that I will not confess at this moment or in this context – thank you very much). I went for decades without a church home, standing in judgement over organized religion and the corruption in the churches.

Taken all together, my worth as a human being is probably somewhere around zilch!

So yeah, if you look at who I am from the world’s eyes, there is very little in my life that I can say is good. But I am not of this world. There is a different reality that supersedes and overrides the one that you see with your eyes.

I Am a Child of the King of Kings

I am not just a college dropout. I am blessed with the very same wisdom that God blessed Solomon with. I am a learner. I am constantly improving my knowledge and always hungry for more wisdom. Yes, on paper I am uneducated, but through Christ my education is completed with nothing lacking.

I am not just a trumpet player with no credentials. I am YOUR trumpet player when you need me to be and that means more to me than touring with any famous band or taking lessons from some guy just because he’s famous. I am not using you as a stepping stone towards bigger and better things. For as long as I am YOUR trumpet player, YOU are the final destination. When I perform for you, it is YOU who is most famous in my eyes and my own stature as a musician matters nothing to me. It is my greatest honor and privileged to serve you with my music.

Yes, there are hundreds of trumpet players who play better than I do, but no one speaks through the horn the way I do. God has given me a special gift on the instrument unique only to me. When I honor that gift in performance, my audiences get to hear something they will never hear elsewhere. No, I am not the best trumpet player in the world, but I don’t need to be for as long as I use the musical voice God gave me. This unique voice also fuels my compositions and the music I write requires absolutely no validation from the masses.

Financially, well, let’s just say that I have an open account that will never run out of money. As a child of the King of Kings, I have access to a great wealth incomparable to anything you could imagine here on Earth. I have NEVER been poor. My heavenly Father tends to all of my needs and I have never known want.

As for social worth, I am a friend of God! I run in the highest of all circles. That’s why I have never been nervous around celebrities. That’s why I have never asked for their autographs or taken pictures with them, because there is no celebrity higher than the Lord of hosts.

As for my sins, well, what sins? Those have all been washed clean by the blood of the Lamb. I do not see myself as a sinner because all of the sins I have committed have been blotted out. There is no record of them in God’s eyes. For that reason, I do not associate myself with the sins of my past. They are not a part of my life and have no power over me.

Last but not least, instead of being an ex-husband of a failed marriage, I am the current husband of a God centered marriage. Pearl and I are dedicated to honoring God in every part of our marriage and in our business. And for that reason, we have a marital bliss that continues to grow into a power unlike what most modern marriages ever get to experience.

Summary

In short, God has taken my pathetic, almost worthless life, and placed it in a high place. I do not see my own worth through the world’s eyes. I see it through God’s love for me. Because of His love, my life has value. Because of His grace, I really am someone important and worldly validation is completely unnecessary.

About Eddie Lewis

Eddie Lewis is primarily known as a Christian free-lance trumpet player in Houston, TX. Eddie makes a living playing trumpet, teaching trumpet and jazz improvisation, writing trumpet music and authoring trumpet books. His second book, Daily Routines for Trumpet, is used regularly by thousands of trumpet players around the world. If you would like to purchase some of his CD's, feel free to visit our online music store at http://www.TigerMusicStore.com.
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